Little did I know when I last posted that fate was not on our side. After all of the drama I went through to get the meds for the IUI this upcoming month, we had a change in insurance and as of Jan. 1 will no longer have fertility coverage. For us, that means we simply cannot afford to proceed with the IUI.
To say that I was crushed when I learned about this is an understatement. I felt like my dream was placed in my hands and then snatched away from me cruelly. To be soooo close to something you want sooo badly and then to have it taken away is horribly heart-wrenching. It's been at least a couple of weeks since we found out about the changes, and it's taken me until now to be even slightly ok with it. Initially I thought that maybe we could proceed without insurance coverage - than the fertility clinic told me it would be roughly $3000 for one IUI cycle, and we just don't have that kind of money right now (or will we ever??). Yeah, that was not good news. But, we do have a plan...
Most of you are aware of my current job situation - it's temporary, and most likely I will no longer be employed as of the end of January, maybe February at the latest. The timeframe isn't certain, but interviews have already been conducted for the position that will replace mine, and I can only assume that those making the hiring decisions are simply waiting until the holidays are over with before an announcement is made. I'm guessing they will give me 2 weeks notice, but I'm not even certain of that.
Anyways, I've been searching for a job for well over a month now, and we are hoping that wherever I end up employed will have good insurance coverage - coverage for infertility treatments. Until then, my fertility meds sit in the fridge, waiting to be used, and we're trying naturally in hopes that we may get incredibly lucky and get pregnant on our own (yeah, not getting my hopes up for that one!).
I'm keeping my chin up, grateful that we at least had coverage for all of the fertility testing we went through and I at least have some answers as to why I'm not getting pregnant. And I still have hope that one way or another, 2012 will be the year we finally become parents.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
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dear sweet friend,
I have a friend that does structural massages, and his teacher had been called the baby therapist because one or two pelvic massages have resulted in many pregnancies. I thought maybe it could be something to research. structural massages move everything back where it should be and gets blood flowing in the right places. I thought it couldn't hurt to look into it. you are in my thoughts and prayers
Never underestimate the power of prayer and righteous living...and being patient while we wait for the Lord's timing. We NEVER thought we'd get pregnant "naturally", and yet, I guess it was part of Heavenly Father's plan for us. I don't know why we had to wait so long, but He does. I know the pain you're going through, and my heart is with you dear friend!
Oh Meagan! :( I'm sorry that happened. How dumb! Ugh. I hope you get a good job with good insurance so you guys can have the family you want... because you deserve it! Big hugs!
Meagan,
I found you! Not that I lost you, but I found you!!:) I'm so happy to see your blog. I was looking through our "readers" on our blog and saw your profile and thought, "I need to check to see if she has a blog". I hope that things are going well for you. So sorry to hear that you're having a hard time growing your family. I'm thinking of you!
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