Not much has been going on fertility-wise this past month, but per a friend's request, I'm updating my blog today nonetheless - you know who you are ;).
It's been more than a month now since my last entry, and since all my tests were completed. When I scheduled my follow-up consultation with the fertility clinic, I was NOT happy that I was going to have to wait an entire month before seeing my doctor again. Did they not have anything sooner? Apparently not. So, the date was set for Dec. 5, and what'ya know, that's TOMORROW! I totally thought the month of November was going to creep by, but it actually passed pretty quickly - thank goodness :). We all know I'm not patient, so a slowly passing month would've driven me crazy!
Anyways, so tomorrow is the day when I find out the results of all of my tests and the tests Jeremy had done. I already know some of the results - my fallopian tubes are open, I had 3 polyps on my uterus, I definitely have PCOS. But tomorrow I will get to sit down with my doctor, review ALL of the results, and hear her tell me if IUI is an option for us. It's a day I've waited for for a LONG time, and I'm glad it's finally here. But, to be perfectly honest, I'm nervous and scared.
You see, throughout this whole process I've tried not to get my hopes up, keeping in mind that we can't afford IVF, and that if IUI or other methods don't look promising for us, we will begin the adoption process once again. But I failed - my hopes for having our own biological child are totally up...that's why I'm nervous and scared about tomorrow's appointment. If my doctor gives me bad news, I'll be completely crushed :(. If it's good news, I'll hardly be able to contain my excitement! I know Heavenly Father has a plan for our family, but that's not always the easiest thing to accept, especially when it seems like everyone around me is pregnant or already has children. But, I trust in God's plan for us, and if I don't get the news I want to hear tomorrow, I'll know that my plan and Heavenly Father's are not the same - it wouldn't be the first time that's happened, especially in this arena, lol.
So tomorrow is the day. The day our future will start to change forever, one way or the other. Here's to hoping it goes well!
Sunday, December 4, 2011
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You are always in my prayers Meagan, but with the upcoming doctor's appointment, you will be even more so. Praying the Lord blesses you and Jeremy with the desires of your heart.
You are so strong! And I am impatient too, waiting for the results! :) I hope it is good news and can't wait to hear all about it! :) Thanks for updating! ;)
Thanks ladies!!
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